LET IN THE BLUES
Today I woke up early SO MANY things I need do. I’ve been a little blue lately. I’m applying to the Columbia School of Journalism, which is a huge undertaking, my friend Jess says it is courageous. I’ve decided in order to prep for the test Columbia requires you to take, I need to start reading the NY Times. Wow, I’ve got a long way to go. I could barely make it through one article. The fact that I didn’t even REALLY know the meaning of “insurgent” made me think perhaps I’m not the ideal candidate for the kind of “serious journalism” Columbia is looking to impart. And I had a hard time keeping track of the Sunni, Kurds and Shiites. This is Iraq, this is current events 101 and I’m longing for the Post – not good. I guess that’s why Jess said applying to J-School is courageous.
So what’s got me down (besides having made a decision to apply to Journalism School and not being sure it’s the right decision – welcome to my world)? Well, I started paying my bills this morning and realized I’m also sort of in a financial mess. If the financial mess wasn’t enough how about the fundraising solicitations from organizations like Human Rights Watch or Amnesty International which basically point out the atrocities of our world. It’s bad, it’s really bad out there. It makes me cry.
So maybe it’s the Holidays, the state of the world, my financial situation, the fact that I’m not quite sure I know what I’m doing with my life or perhaps that this morning I broke my favorite vintage NYC plate (that I carried on a bike around Quebec for a week) that’s got me down. But being blue is a part of life – let it in, just let it in because keeping that sadness at bay can really wear you out or even make you sick. And if you know me, like I know me, you know it won’t last. I mean how can it - I’m having a party this week with great friends and I’m applying to a top graduate school – how cool is that? And in the end – the only thing that matters is LOVE, especially my undying love for Jon and Olive (if you switch the “o” and the “i” it spells I love).
So what’s got me down (besides having made a decision to apply to Journalism School and not being sure it’s the right decision – welcome to my world)? Well, I started paying my bills this morning and realized I’m also sort of in a financial mess. If the financial mess wasn’t enough how about the fundraising solicitations from organizations like Human Rights Watch or Amnesty International which basically point out the atrocities of our world. It’s bad, it’s really bad out there. It makes me cry.
So maybe it’s the Holidays, the state of the world, my financial situation, the fact that I’m not quite sure I know what I’m doing with my life or perhaps that this morning I broke my favorite vintage NYC plate (that I carried on a bike around Quebec for a week) that’s got me down. But being blue is a part of life – let it in, just let it in because keeping that sadness at bay can really wear you out or even make you sick. And if you know me, like I know me, you know it won’t last. I mean how can it - I’m having a party this week with great friends and I’m applying to a top graduate school – how cool is that? And in the end – the only thing that matters is LOVE, especially my undying love for Jon and Olive (if you switch the “o” and the “i” it spells I love).
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